Story never changes...there is a reason that black and white has a right answer...

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I'm not as strong as you make me out to be, it is true my words ring out the air of toughness. If I was weak I would not be here; hence, survival of the fittest. The words I ring to you are what I need to say. Taking what I say out of context only makes confusion amongst your own self. I have given you all of who I am, the good, the bad, the ugly and there is nothing more inside of me to reveal. Today the good out shines the bad. Yet, the pain I feel makes me cry and I am not ashamed of showing my emotions. Condemn me if you must, but I will still cry, still let you know how I feel. You dislike me for what you loved, dislike me for what you brought out of me and now I sit here alone. After everything I have given, everything I have endured, I must let it all go. I have learned a lot, I have become a new person and I hope you will realize that some day. I have never cheated on you, never put you down to anyone and always stood by your side. Yet, no I am not perfect and I will never be perfect. I have yelled, screamed, gone unbelieveably crazy, been irrational at times and I am glad I have had the chance to step back. I can tell the world what I have done and still stand. I am not ashamed of who I have been and I am glad I am here today but get one thing straight-I am strong but only as strong as your eyes make me for when I tell you I am lonely those words are completely true. Never did I want to see you walk away, never did I lie about our standings, but darling dear we were on and off-when you told me to see other people, what is that to me? When you moved out, what is that to me? When you didn't talk to me-honestly, what is that to me? You can not say that we were not on and off.

I pray you will clear up the clouds that loom over your head. I don't know how you are going to open or if you ever will. I wish you the best of luck and through it all, everything-laughter, smiles, playing, looking in your eyes, holding you/holding me, struggles in life, triumphs, crying, those moments of life... I will always be there for you no matter what. I am not sure if you would do the same for me but, I can always hope that you will once again be real. I will always love the truth in you, I will always love every part of the puzzle that makes us complicated. Everything happens for a reason-hopefully the shards of emotion pulled out of both of us brings us down to earth.

Love,
"the internet thug"