Dear Anonymous

Hi, nice to meet you :) I see you have some issues. Would you care to talk about them? Obviously we all need help at some point so I am willing to listen.

Don't hide behind your anonymity, learn how to type properly and please if you are going to try and hurt someone's feelings don't make them laugh in the process. You can't hurt someone who knows the truth about themselves. I am a strong person inside and out. I will not break and I will never be afraid of who you are.. so my words are either show your face coward or if not then fuck off while finding someone else to try and break.

Lovingly,
Chantelle

Nightmares...

They pull me from my slumber to the depths of their own personal hell. I am left alone digging and clawing for what seems like days, hours, minutes writhing in sweat all the while screaming for anything that will take my hand and pull me out of this dispair. My throat closes in as I gasp for breath, if you were watching me you would see that I am really choking. Who is hunting me at night, trying to take my soul from my own shell sucking the life from my body as I am defenseless? I feel your pain as you give it to me in passing, I understand what you have gone through in your own lessons of life. If it makes you feel better that I am suffering then right now you are happy. I have seen the blood, I have felt the warmth of it gush out from my wounds, I have felt myself slip away slowly reaching up for one last surge of hope. One day you will succeed but I can't say my fight will not destroy you in the process. If one has to fall then both of us will, yet I can't have your parasite sucking me dry any longer. Standing guard, I will give you a showdown and I may collapse soon; yet, one thing remains a constant my soul will never be yours.

Silent song...

I miss you and you haven't even come yet.
I've seen you and haven't even felt you yet.
I reach for you and you aren't even here.
My emotions rise in 2-D and I want to kiss you.
The roller coaster you ride brings me to highs and then to incredible lows.
You confuse me with what you say.
My stomach flips when you call.
Your voice soothes my soul.
You make me smile even when I am sad.
You bring me to tears, frustrated....
Give anything to be by your side always, forever.
So far away, I would run to you...
Give anything to be by your side.
Exit my world to enter yours, to sit on your bed and watch you.
Happiness.
Family.
Love.

I feel it. I feel you. I feel the spark.
How do I tell you? How do I explain it? How do I ask you? How do I get to you?
What can I say... to get you to understand? I don't think I have to explain much. You know what you feel. You let it out slowly, random, bit by bit. Is it real? Yes.

Life, Desire, Frustrations, Emotions, Dreams, Heartbeats.... Pulse bringing life to what I feel inside. To think of you makes my heart flutter, rapid, deep, pounding.... to think of me by your side everyday, waking up next to you, hugging you when I want to, I want to keep you forever... my heart sings it's silent song to you.

My biggest compliment-you inspire me, make me happy and a better person for knowing you.

Tears... 

Our future lies...

Walking, wondering, wishing, waiting.... what am I here for? Life, love, happiness what more do you need in life. Who is out there with the same goals, same moment in life where they are ready? Options-Never settle-Save it for you, special-one last time. Floating, Frustrated, Moved by you. Wanting, hoping, feeling, emotion.... question, really what will it take?

Have I found you? Should I let myself slide? Are we making music together... Reaching out, feeling you, hearing your heartbeating for me, your eyes looking in mine and I am brought to tears... I smile.

Coming into myself-a place of independence, a place of confidence, able to walk tall alone... My door is open to acceptance and I stand and wait for you to walk in and take me with you.

I will never settle for anything when I am looking for you...

Obsessed with the sun, pulled by the moon as the stars shine down and keep me company I will always be your angel protecting you throughout countless years. My purpose is to make you a better man.

I know what I want and what I want is in you.

Happiness.
Love.
Family.
Strength.

Within your eyes... truth.